Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Blog Tour: Complicate Me by M. Robinson

Title: Complicate Me (The Good Ol’ Boys)
Author: Best Selling Author M. ROBINSON
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Release Day: September 14th
Cover Design: Rebecca Marie at The Final Wrap

It was complicated, it was also just the beginning.
A decision.
A simple choice.
There is always that one moment in life where things could have been different. That one moment where you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a certain road.
A different life.
It was easier to pretend that we were still best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
Pretending was better than knowing the truth...
I. Ruined. Us.
I had her.
I lost her.
I love her.
All I did was complicate us. 

4 Star Review by Natasha Gentile

This is a new series for M. Robinson.  It takes place in the Oak Island, NC., which I love.  I’m thinking I really need to visit the South!  

Here’s my thoughts.  

This story is not just about Lucas and Alex.  It was the start of a series so there were lots of background characters setting them up for their own books.  I really liked how she described each character and their parents so you knew who was who.

Jacob, Dylan, Austin and Lucas were the best friends that people can be.  The story starts when they are 12 and 13.  Doing the things that preteens do, drive the girls crazy.  

There is just one catch to their gang, Alexandra, Alex or Half-Pint to them.  She was the younger  sister to them all.  She really hated being called a girl and she showed that she was just as strong as the boys.  

Lucas and Alex were attached at the hip, but everyone knows that even two years between them at that age is huge!  

We got to see them get into trouble, evade punishments and simply grow up.  There was only one little complication in this whole friendship.  Lucas and Alex loved each other even from that age.  You saw it, you felt it.  He was her big brother but he was also paving the way to be her everything.

It was complicated, it was also just the beginning.
A decision.
A simple choice.

We all know that boys are kind of stupid, especially between the ages of 13-17 and Lucas is no better.  I mean he is trying to figure out how to grow up, but he’s doing it with the many voices telling him what he should and shouldn’t do.

He knows that Alex is to young for him, and he shouldn’t look at her like that.  I mean she’s Alex right.  He’s her big brother, he’s her best friend.  He just can’t make up his mind.  Pushing her away and confusing her and himself the whole way through.
In those minutes, I didn’t care because…
It felt right.
We felt right.
I didn’t know it then, but that’s when I fell in love with him.

Poor Alex.  Imagine growing up with four big brothers.  Imagine trying to be a girl liking guys when they are always there peering down at any boy that will attempt to get past their fortress that they built around her.

So basically she can’t date, but she has to sit back and watch all her ‘brothers’ grown up, especially Lucas.  She get to see him go from her best friend, to the boy she loves to the boy who breaks her heart.

I saw her.
And I knew
It wasn’t hard to put two and two together.  I don’t know how she found out; all that mattered was the she did.

And it was that moment I wanted to jump into the book and shake the crap out of Lucas, along with kick him in the gonads and pull his hair.  Hey I’m a girl it’s how we fight!

This book takes you all the way through their high school years.  They go through the normal drama that happens in  high school.  

She grows up, so does Lucas, but while growing up they also grow apart.  He wants her, he can’t have her.  When he thinks that maybe they can be together, he lets everyone put in their two sense sending him further away from her.  

There is always that one moment in life where things could have been different. That one moment where you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a certain road. 

That one moment broke me.  It made my heart stop, it made it break, it made it shattered.  It left me hollow and empty.  I wanted Alex to walk away.  I wanted Lucas to hurt.  I wanted Alex to finally, finally walk away, because no one should be gutted over and over again.  When will it be enough.  Except when it was enough and she was done.  It didn’t make me feel better.

I took one last look at him, wanting to remember him just this way, and sucked in a breath I didn’t realize I held.  “I’m done, Bo, I’m done,” I repeated as more tears fell down his handsome, broken face.
For the first time..
He knew.
That what I said…
Was. True.

I know you are sitting there reading this feeling a bunch of emotions.   It is nothing, nothing that you feel while reading this book.  You want these two to wake up.  You want them to go back and erase all the hurt that they both suffered.  

Alex and Lucas both go on with their life.  Both without the other.  Alex moves out of town, away from her home, away from her boys.  They both grow up, they both never ever forget about the other.  Their lives always intertwined.  Their families always letting the other know how each is doing.   No matter how much you tell yourself that you are better off without the hurt and pain that you were in, the heart wants what the heart wants and you have no say over that.  No matter how battered and bruised it is, it knows where it belongs.

Fighting love, fighting destiny doesn’t complete you it complicates things, it complicates you and it complicates me.

It was only Lucas.
Always Lucas.
Not one other soul had this pull.
On me.
On him.
On us.

I really enjoyed this book.  I’m excited about the other stories coming up in this series.   I really could have done with a little bit less angst.  I felt at times the extra angst was there but it didn’t need to be.   I do however, want to visit this town as soon as I can!

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My brown eyed girl sat on our blankets with her arms wrapped around her knees, hiding her face. The tiny frame that I adored so much shook uncontrollably, only heightening the deepest sobbing that escalated with each passing second. It was such an intimate moment, not to be shared with anyone, especially me. Alex didn’t cry. I watched her bawl for the first time in my life. I had never seen anyone cry like that before, and it shook me to my core, slicing me whole, and making me feel like I was dying. Carving a memory that I would take to my grave. 
There was no going back…
No erasing.
No do overs.
No deleting.
What I witnessed tonight would be my purgatory; I would now close my eyes and forever see her falling apart in front of me. Shattering before my very own eyes and I found it hard to breathe.
Hard to move.
My feet were glued to the goddamn floor as she continued to weep, sob, bawl, violently sucking in air that wasn’t available. I accepted it all; each tear that fell from her face becoming pieces of me. Circulating through my veins and blood, it flowed endlessly, a river of her sadness and sorrow and of my broken promises. No beginning or ending to her cries, just an infinite current, flooding the hole where my heart should be. The shadow of her trembling petite body reflected off the walls, leaving a trail of regrets in its wake.
Growing up in a small town you overheard a lot of things. People talking, stories told, town gossip. You listened a lot. You learned a lot. Tourists, townies, friends, and especially family all shared wisdom and advice that you think you will never need.
Bunch of bullshit.
They say you have that one moment in life where things could have been different, that one moment that changes the course of your life or the direction you could have taken. That one moment that could forever change you and everything you wanted to be true, everything you wanted to believe.
One simple decision could alter your entire future.
My entire world.
I would forever remember this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment that changed everything. This is the moment where I took another direction, another road that led me to my own demise.
My own regrets. 
I should have walked in there. I should have apologized. I should have begged for her forgiveness. I should have promised that I would never hurt her again. I should have done whatever it took to make her look at me the way she had our entire lives.
But I didn’t…
I did none of those things…
Not one.
Nothing was said between us.
No words.
No actions.
I was a coward and couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t look into her eyes and know that I had hurt her. That I had disappointed her. That I ruined her love and lost her respect for me.
The boy who promised he would never hurt her.
The boy who swore he would always protect her.
The boy who vowed he would never let anything happen to her.
That same boy was me.
I was the reason she was bawling.
I was the reason she was hurt.
I was the reason she was broken.
She knew the truth. It had finally caught up to me… I shattered her illusion that I was hers. I ruined the one good thing I had in my life. The girl that owned my heart was bleeding out for me in a way that I had never seen before. The house was no longer our safe place.
I had brought my hurricane with me…
I couldn’t risk the possibility of losing her permanently if I walked in there and admitted my truths. She wouldn’t love me anymore, she wouldn’t look at me the same anymore, and she wouldn’t be mine anymore.
My brown eyed girl.
The girl that I had loved all of my life.
The same girl that I would love for the rest of my life.
I gave her the only comfort I could in her moment of despair. I turned around and left. I walked down the stairs and got into my truck. I turned the engine on and drove my sorry ass home. I took a shower and never once looked at myself in the mirror. I pretended that nothing changed. That I didn’t cause her pain, and that she didn’t know the truth. That I didn’t see her sobbing and that she wasn’t even bawling to begin with. That we were still just best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
My Half-Pint and her Bo.
It was better than knowing…
I ruined us.

Best Selling Author M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.

She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently pursuing her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.

She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.  

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